Miscarriage at 8 weeks

How do I even start this post. This was supposed to be our first pregnancy. We were so excited when we got a positive test on 22 November 2020. I started to eat healthy as I am overweight and I also made sure that I don't eat the foods which are bad for a pregnancy. It was all going well. We went to see the gynae 14 December 2020 and I was only 5 weeks and 5 days. There were no fetal pole, but the gynae ordered me to come back on 11 January 2021 (4 weeks wait). I was worried that it is too long to wait. On the 31st of December I wiped and there was a blood streak. I ended up going to ER and just before 11 at night I was ammited to hospital. My husband was sitting at reception and I was all alone going to the maternity ward. There were no blood in my underwear. The gynae on call only saw me the next day at 10am. He did an abdominal ultrasound and there it was the moment I dreaded... I saw an empty sac and my heart fell. The words flew right out of my mouth "it is empty doc?" He was quiet and then he started saying sorry. He decided to do a transvaginal ultrasound and he saw something. He measured the sac and told me the baby stopped growing and is only measuring 6 weeks and 3 days and there is no heart beat. Tears came rolling down and I could not even stop it. He explained that he is going to do blood work and see if my hcg dropped or rose. If it rose then I can wait another week, but if it dropped the I need to undergo a d&c. The blood test results are still pending, but at night I started spotting brown and the nurse just told be that I can not eat after 10 at night. The doc never came to speak to me and a nurse is telli g me this. My heart dropped again. I also thought that u would be going home on new years, but that was also out of the window. The morning of 2 January 2021 the nurse woke me up at 5 in the morning just to make my bed. I was given a new gown and had to just lay it out before being prepared for the d&c. Well the moment has came... I am being prepared for the d&c. Blood work is being done (yet another bruised arm) and a drip will be inserted soon. I never thought that I would be going through this and because of covid 19, I am all alone and my husband can't even be with me at the moment. This is a situation where they could really bend the rules because no woman should go through this alone. If a mother to be can have the father to be with her, why can't a woman going through a miscarriage have their husband with them? Well this is it. On 2 January 2021 I lost my baby which were due on 11 August 2021. This is the hardest thing to go through.