Last night was a bad night for me. I’ve been trying to keep myself from falling into a dark hole but last night I fell in. For hours I sat in the dark thinking about cutting my both my wrists but I didn’t. I knew I could have done it and no one would have knew for hours and by the time they found me I would have been gone. But I didn’t. I don’t know if I’m weak for wanting to do it or strong for not doing it. As of now it’s 5oclock pm and I just dragged myself out of bed. No food, no water, no toilet or no shower. I just want to get better.