What is it??🤔😞

Ok I've been talking to this man for a year now he's 35 and I'm 26 like we always @ it and I'm just trying to figure out what it is the reason we always @ it . When I first met him he wasn't nothing like he is now even tho I know that's how it goes they never be the same as to how they got you, so could it be our age difference even tho they say age ain't nothing but a number anyone ?? I just want to know because I do have some feelings for him but @ the same time don't won't to feel stupid.