Sharing my truth...

Almost 5 years ago I was pregnant, it was the most beautiful feeling having life grow inside of me. Around 13 weeks I started spotting, I was told it was normal. A couple days later the spotting came along with cramping and I went to the ER and was told the same thing but it wouldn’t stop. For weeks I was told it was normal but I knew that something wasn’t right, they thought oh it’s her first pregnancy, she’s overreacting.

At 17 weeks I went to the ER again because I had woken up with a lot of bleeding and they did an ultrasound like they always did and they found something this time. They had said I had complete placenta previa and it looked as if my water had broken because there was little to no amniotic fluid. They told me that my baby was either going to be born stillborn or was going to be born physically disfigured (missing limbs). I did not want that life, that pain for my baby. The doctor told me it would be best if I got an emergency D&C. And I agreed.

When I woke up out of surgery, I was in an incredible amount of pain. Tubes coming out of my nose, stomach and arms. I was confused, the doctor said it was a simple and routine procedure 35 to 45 mins max. But I woke up hours later, 6 hours to be exact. The doctor said that there was an injury made during my surgery, in short, they pierced a hole in my uterus and my colon. They had to open me up and preform an Exploratory Laparotomy to repair the damage they had done. I trusted these people, that hospital to keep me safe and they did not.

Recovery took a long time, over three months. I developed an infection shortly after being released from the hospital. My Incision had to be left open in order for it to heal. I had a nurse coming to my house to take care of me so that I wouldn’t develop sepsis. It was a long grieving process that I still haven’t fully accepted what happened. I’m still angry, hurt and I have a physical reminder of what happened that day for the rest of my life. I’m still craving to feel that life grow inside me. I miss my baby and I just wanted to share my truth.

Thanks for listening ❤️