I'm sorry you feel like this .. I feel super depress as well .. my kids father is so verbally abusive and rude to me he treats me like shit like I'm a little girl and tries control me on everything ... He gets mad over any little thing that I do! Like even the way I eat bothers him .. I hate him so much I wish I could leave him I stay for my kids he is always telling me I'm not good at anything .. if I asked for a hug or kiss he rolls his eyes and just leans forward and looks up and barely let's his lol touch mine and walks away .. we sleep I'm different beds ... He tells me I'm a bad everyday and anything I do is bad .. he also tells me that I'm not good as a mother! He makes my self esteem be so low ... I am miserable and every night before I go to sleep I think about how happy I would be single but then worry and start getting anxiety of him trying to take my kids away! I love my kids and don't want him to take them away (he has told me he has money save to get a good lawyer and take them away since I don't work and won't have anything to offer them!) I also know I do alot for them i cook I clean them I change their diapers I take them to their appts I am the one whom takes them to the urgent care when ever anything happens I'm the one whom stays up with them when sick I am the one whom tries to protect from everything bad .. I know at times I can't accomplish everything but I know I do everything I can for them .. all I wish is for me to and my kids to be together and be single happy with them in peace instead of being with a guy like him whom is verbally abusive and stresses me out and watches me like he ist supervisor on everything I do at home!