I am terrified to go to a gynecologist. Beyond terrified. To the point that I have come to terms with the fact that if I get cervical cancer and I die, I am okay with that as long as I never have to go to a gynecologist. I have been once, and it was one of the worst experiences I've had in my life. I know not all gynecologists will be as judgemental, pushy, unpleasant and rough as the one I went to, but I don't want to go through the process of finding one I like. Not only that, but I would still rather die than go to even a good one.