So done with this...

Soo i really just need to get this off my chest... I just had my first baby 6 weeks ago. Me and my husband just got the ok to have sex again 2 days ago. Hes been complaining about blue balls(even tho i give him head till he gets off) for days now.... He's also been begging me to drink with him for days. I been refusing due to breastfeeding but gave in tonight thinking we could get a lil nasty lol. I took 3 shots n not gunna lie i felt pretty good. I offered him to go to the room n he said no. I figured he was joking because he started saying he was sick n fake dry heaving. Then i asked again n he snapped. Saying he doesn't wanna have sex with me because all im doing is getting turned on by a song. I laughed and told him it was a lyric video ( we were watching it together on the tv) n hes acting like i was thinking of other people. Then there he goes on about how i think of other people. Just bs. I remained soo calm. Which for me isn't normal haha. But i don't want yelling or fighting around my baby. So i let it go. Then i go up to him bout half an hour later and ask him if he knows why he's mad and he said and i quote " best believe ima see my daughter. I done talked to the guy i work for and hes friends with a judge."

I never once threatened him or anything!!! Ik how it is to be without a parent I'd never do that to my baby. N it wasn't even that serious!! I stood there n tryed to let him calm down but he just kept going so i called him a name. He then went on calling my dad a pervert and just straight started talking shit about my whole family. Now hes packed up his closet n is sitting outside lmaoo. I am soo over this shit. I did no wrong before he went off. I dont deserve this at all. I should have left when i had the chance. Idk why i thought things would ever get better. Now idk what to do. I've been fired. I cant drive and i have no back up place to go. N as mentioned i have a newborn. Im lost. I can't do this anymore.