Sad and frustrated

So I’m lying in bed and my partners snoring away next to me and I can’t sleep.

Is it normal to just not want sex?? I feel like I’m doing something wrong. We’ve had a lovely day off together, he was in a good mood and flirty, got closer to bed time and he seemed to be cooling off a bit so I knew I wasn’t getting any sex. We’d been in bed and hour and he rolled over and we tried, but I knew he didn’t really want it so stopped him, had a talk where he said he’s worried I’ll leave and I promised I love him and won’t leave now he’s fast asleep. But seriously! There was some serious foreplay going on, which he started, and mentally he was switched off.

He’s on antidepressants which have totally ruined his libido, and they stop him climaxing which also kills the mood. But I’m starting to think is it me aswell? I’m not exactly atttactive, I’m overweight and a bit flabby from the weight I’ve lost, there’s no way he looks at me and thinks ‘wow!’. And is me wanting sex turning him off?? I try not to bother him too much for it, but I’ve got a higher sex drive and I find him really attractive and when we’re having a good day and he’s in a good mood I can’t help flirting.

I just really feel like shit right now.