My boyfriend and I have been dating 3 years. He’s 20, and im 18 about to be 19. If im being honest he’s said the worst things to me, I think I’ve ever heard in my life. That was a year into our relationship though. Back then we used to get into GIANT fights...to the point we’d almost wreck, physically fight eachother, other people had to step in between, been bruised. It was bad. And i grew from it and moved on, trusted he wouldn’t ever be like that again.

Flash forward to last weekend, we get into the stupidest little fight ever. And he starts calling me names again and making snarky little comments...at this point I know where this is going and I refuse to go back to that time in our relationship so I tell him to stop acting like this, but that just makes him more angry. (We’re in his truck, mind you it’s lifted, has big ass tires) he starts driving insane, speeding then slamming on breaks, pulls into this gas station, slams on the breaks and slams the door.. I was SO fed up and beyond upset i went ahead and hopped out of the truck, and walked my ass over to a Freddie’s near by in 25 degree weather and snow. I sit in there for about an hour, finally he convinces me to get back in the truck. When I do. HE SPEEDS AWAY, and says “I don’t like going on fucking scavenger hunts for my own fucking girlfriend”. So then I get upset and I’m like “so you literally fucking lied about calming down. So now he starts screaming at me. All the manipulative “look at you trinity, look you make me act like this, you ruin everything for yourself”. And this is when I lost it. He used to say the same things and speed them turn up the volume to the highest level, and so since i was having PTSD from the last physical fight we got into I went to turn down the music and he GRABS MY WRIST and squeezes it and looks me dead in the eyes and goes “this is my truck, i can do what I want dont fucking touch it”...I immediately started crying. The whole time I’m crying he’s still going off about how everything’s my fault and maybe if I didn’t get upset he wouldnt have to get so mad. When we got back to my house he apologized a lot...and I didn’t totally forgive him..im still upset and the relationship doesn’t feel the same. Feels like everything we built the last 2 years was just shattered.

Is this abusive behavior I really need to look out for? Is this how it all starts?? Pls respond soon. I feel so overwhelmed and depressed over this.