Boyfriend vs Best Friend

Alright... so my boyfriend - who we will call Oliver - and I are on the verge of breaking up. Butttt I’m pregnant with his baby. I personally don’t believe in abortion (pls do not come for me for being pro-life) and can’t put my baby up for adoption because Oliver wants a baby and wouldn’t sign away his parental rights. Plus I want the baby too, I am so attached to it.

But here’s my problem: I’ve been unhappy with my relationship since November and I’ve been losing feelings since then. Right now, I pretty much feel nothing but anger towards Oliver because he is so manipulative and toxic and he always gas lights me. But that’s a story for a different time. Oliver already knows exactly how I feel, we talk a lot (well, mostly fight) about everything like this. He knows everything and wants to try to fix us... but I think I’m passed the point of being able to fix things between us.

And here’s where it gets juicy: I think I have feelings for his best friend - let’s call him John (who is now also my best friend). When I first met the John, I thought he was cute but that went away after a little while. Now, I’m pretty sure I have feelings. All 3 of us have slept in the same bed - me in the middle and the only way I fit was if I slept facing John. His personality is flirtatious, and so is mine, and I’ve literally always been worried about people thinking we are flirting. That’s never happened bc we treat other people the way we treat each other. Minus the fact that he tickles me a lot... and tried to get my “goose” laugh to come out and/or make me snort like a pig. BUT I’m obviously not going to do anything about it because he will be my baby’s uncle and even if I wasn’t pregnant, it would just be SUPER awkward! But what do I do?? I really don’t wanna tell either one of them, I just want it to pass! Plus another thing: I’m 18 and the best friend is 21... legal, yes, but weird for many reasons.

I guess I just need some guidance with Oliver and John. I’m confused in my feelings and don’t want too many people to end up hurt at the end of everything.