Seeking advice 😥

Or maybe just venting .. we’ve been ttc over 3 years. I decided to take a break I couldn’t handle it anymore. In between I had endometriosis surgery. After learning I have a slim chance of conceiving, and counting all the chemical pregnancies I’ve had im really discouraged. My husband BEGGED me to reach out to a fertility clinic. I ended up calling 2.5 months ago and set up an appointment for next week( it’s all over the phone for now with covid). I’ve done tons of research and it looks like ivf might be the way, but I told my husband he has to fully be committed and focus, he needs to adopt more healthy habits and be able to help me. I sent him a list of protocols before ivf, such as cutting back alcohol and taking vitamins etc. well it’s been all this time and he hasn’t put any effort into getting healthier. I feel let down. My appointment is next week and I shouldn’t go through with all of it unless my husband is more involved. I actually was looking into adoption, and have always wanted to adopt but he BEGGED me to try ivf first. What would you do? I don’t even want to have the consult anymore. It feels like a waste of time. Adoption would atleast guarantee a happier outcome all around. Any thoughts? Or advice?