Frustrated 😩

I’m 37 and TTC for a year now. Two years ago I had a spontaneous pregnancy that ended up in an ectopic pregnancy with my right fallopian tube busted. After healing physically and mentally, we decided we were not getting any younger and that’s when we started trying for the first time. After six months TTC I went to the OB Gyn and he ordered an HSG to rule out anything wrong with the remaining tube. After that he said that everything was ok and that it was just a matter of time. So additional six months went by and I visited a fertility doctor. She discovered in the same HSG that even though my tube is not obstructed is being “hold” by something, and is not located exactly next to the ovary, and in addition that this month I’m ovulating from my right side (where the ectopic happened).

My husband and I are doing long distance for now (we’re kind of deciding where are we settling) and is extremely difficult to jump on a plane every month to try and get pregnant. Romance at this point is out the door, and being intimate lately feels like a job. The stress this is putting on us is getting on our nerves, and I don’t know how much more of this situation we can take, without causing major issues between us.

Not to mention the fertility doctor offered a bunch of options that were way out of our budget.

I don’t have friends to talk about this and I’m feeling lonely and hopeless.