What do I replied to this

Earlier today at 5:55 am my husband received a txt message from his coworker but when you opened the txt a picture of a girl and different name come up I called her and then she txt me this I don’t even know why I txt her but this is what she replied back

What should I say I am so lost in words

Edit; I have not replied back to her but she just txt me saying if I am okay

My husband txt me this

That’s what I’m saying is that yes u have forgiven me time n time again and still are with me but that has never gone away.. no matter what if I am or if I’m not ur mindset is still the same you always believe I am lieing that not once am I actually being honest with u n I know that my fault n I hate myself for that I can’t change the past but I’ve also been here by ur side trying to be better regardless of how u feel about me.. I know u love me like no other without a doubt but I also know u dnt trust me whatsoever and I don’t know if u ever will.. I could only wish I never made the mistakes I did and I will forever regret it and have to live with it.. it’s hard for me to look u in the eyes knowing that I’ve lost your trust and it’s been years living like this.. I don’t want to lose u I hate that I created this and I’m sorry I’ve made your mindset towards me what it is.. I hate myself for it so bad.. I love u ur my love of my life no one has ever loved me the way u have or will... I don’t want u to fall out of love for me like u have over the years.. u have a hate for me that I can see everyday and I don’t blame you because it’s all my fault but at the end of the day u have to believe Ionly wish we can be happy again.. I dnt know what to do I’m so stressed and my mind is everywhere I just want us to be good and I fucked that up a long time ago that I dnt know when it will ever be the same as before all the bullshit.. I just wish u truly knew you are my love I can’t imagine myself without you.

At this point I blame myself that he has continued to do this because I had continued to forgive him because I don’t want my kids to grow without a father he is the best father he can be for our kids but as a husband he is amazing but the cheating can’t stop and I can’t continue with this broken cycle I need to get away from him and I just don’t know to brake this to my kids I know they will be really hurt.