Trouble in paradise.

Hey, NEED ADVICE/ HELP!

I need help, I’ve been with my bf for about 3 years.

Living together for 2 years.

Known each other since 2016.

The problem is we have sex like once every 2/3 weeks, and he watches porn.

Some time ago I found out he watches, spoke to him about it and he said he won’t do it again that he feels really bad that he understands that I have some problems with accepting myself and that he knows how I felt when I saw that.

Then I knew he was going to bath room very often straight after work and came out different and I just new he was doing it again.

Today he gave me his phone I really didn’t want to check but once again there was porn videos there in his history and when I spoke to him about 2/3 weeks ago he said that he Haden’s watched them since we last spoke about it and I believed him. I was stupid.

He once even tried putting porn on tv “so I could get in the mood” but as soon as I saw that I asked wtf he was doing cose he knows that all I need to do to get in the mood is look at him. I thought to myself I bet it’s you wanting to get yourself in the mood not me.

So basically I saw them porn videos on his phone again and like with me he only dose the missionary is that how you say it? Sorry I’m not English it’s my second language heheh.

And the things he watches are like bdsm, ass to mouth, orgys and shit and now like I love him I don’t see myself without him but like I’m really getting hurt seeing all of this and with me he doesn’t even kiss me everyday but he manages to watch porn everyday.

I don’t know what to do anymore I want to talk with him but I’m scared of an argument I really need some advice I’m just in a place I don’t know what to do anymore I just want to cry.