Honestly TTC sucks. I hate it. I had to have an ovary removed in October due to a massive 30 lb cyst. My cycles have been normal since then and my hormones perfectly fine until this last week. I was hoping maybe for the first time in the almost 6 years we've been having unprotected sex that it was finally my time. My hormones were walk. I was moody, raging then crying. The whole damn crazy thing. Then I start this morning. I want to give up. I feel like I don't deserve a baby somehow. I want to cry my eyes out...

I'm high risk for another cyst. Appointments, ultrasounds and blood work every 6 months for several years if all goes right. I'm terrified I'll never have a baby. And my fiance doesn't really talk about it, but he wants kids so bad. I don't want us to miss out on this but it feels like it's never going to happen. I'm just want to give up....