He isn’t attracted to me anymore?

We have a 6 month old baby and we have been fighting nonstop. Every single fight we’ve gotten into has tied into this prevailing issue we have been having: he will not have sex with me.

I was a model for years, all through college. I’m a pretty conventionally attractive woman (hourglass figure, tan, 370 cc breast implants, long hair, good hygiene, flat stomach, etc.) I’m only 24, so my body came out of the whole childbirth thing unscathed. No stretch marks, no weight gain... nothing. Not that it matters or should matter! I birthed his child! I fold his underwear and cook him breakfast and dinner every day! I’ve loved him through thick and thin!

Every time I’d ask for sex, he got mad. It’s like a switch would flip. He’d tell me I’m crazy, I’m annoying, etc. A few times he even stormed out of the house and went to the bar to get some space. All over me begging him to have sex with me.

So I suspected cheating. NUMEROUS times I have combed through his phone, his work computer (please don’t judge me, this has made me crazy insecure), Apple Watch, etc. No fishy apps, no suspicious messages or contacts. He does watch porn, but I don’t care about that (not cheating to me). He still posts so many photos of us together all across social media. Wtf.

Well... I finally blew up this evening. The baby went down for the night and I shaved my whole body, put on new sexy lingerie, lotioned my body. Basically, he rejected me and I started crying. Then, he confessed: “you’re just not sexy to me anymore. You can wear a thong bikini and shake your ass, but I’m always going to prefer to look at a girl who hasn’t had a baby. I’m trying to feel the attraction, but it’s not happening. I can’t even watch porn if it says “milf” because moms just aren’t hot.” He also mentioned somewhere in there that he’d never cheat but he’d rather have sex with me with all the lights off so he can picture someone else.

I’m absolutely devastated. Please help me ladies. He’s a good dad, a good provider, and a nice guy... but he thinks I’m ugly simply because I’m a mom. Will it change? Is my sex life over? Im so so sad and I can’t stop crying.