It feels like I’ll I never know what it feel, to hold my own healthy baby in my arms. I lost my son at 18wk last year in April with a horrible emergency surgery d&C. Cause my body wouldn’t dilate . Before my son I had 3 miscarriage. I’ve taken all the test. Each one always comes back normal/fine. Always told My baby making parts “ completely fine “. Yet I struggle to conceive all the time. We been trying 4 years. Each pregnancy is 1yr -1 1/2 yr apart.

My S/O is supportive. Even though he is, I feel like I’ve let him down.

Maybe feeling more down.. 7 days late. Got today BFN.

I don’t want to try anymore, but I don’t want to give up. It’s a constant struggle.