So I’ve been in a relationship for a while now and we’ve been together for seven months now. We’ve done quite a bit like experimenting with oral sex but we haven’t done full on sex just yet. I have really bad anxiety and overthink every little thing. even though we’re both ready to have sex and I want to do it I just know that once it comes to that time I would flip out and have a panic attack. I started birth control to try to help calm my nerves with this and I’ve been on it for a few months now it’s been really hard and I’ve had rough symptoms but I knew that this would help me. although, today I had an incident where I was dry humping him and he then began to masturbate after that. After he touched himself for a little bit he rubbed his hand over my vagina and I freaked out. I had leggings and underwear on but I was still freaking out. He tends to have a lot of precum when he is aroused so it always scares me to do anything with him while he is turned on cause I don’t want to risk him having any precum on his hands.I burst into tears afterwards because I felt so bad because I made him stop everything he was doing. This happens all the time and I know that I am overreacting I just don’t know how to calm my nerves. If anyone has any suggestions and just help me calm my nerves that would be great, just please don’t be rude in the comments.