Birth Control Help:/

I have been on the pill for over 2 years. I went on it for my heavy bleeding, painful cramps, migraines, and acne. When I originally started BC I was not sexually active but since I’ve been with my boyfriend for a year now and so it’s needed for obvious reasons... the thing is tho I’m in a weird depressive state when take them. Let me explain. I have messed up on taking them before (I’m human) and so when this has happened I’ve found it best to stop taking them and then start taking them again when I was supposed to start my new pack. Otherwise I get a harsh reaction from my body cause of my hormones being messed with. Anyways recently I was off them for about 4 weeks and the first week was hard I was really depressed and had bad mood swings but then slowly I started being really happy. I started picking up hobbies, and getting up early and doing really healthy things for myself. I was super proud and when I started taking my BC again I lost that happiness. I was really depressed for the first week I was back on it and then I regulated back to my BC but I’m in this haze when I’m on it. I hate it a lot. I’ve talked to my boyfriend and he fully supports me going off it but I don’t want kids at this age and condoms just don’t work the same for us. I want to go on a different method of BC but less depressy. Also did I mention my acne actually cleared up when I was off it??? LIKE WHAT??? Idk:( I just want myself back.