Im trying to be...........

Maybe more realistic or just not so excited, or should i let myself be excited and not be pessimistic. Idk. I had a miscarriage on Christmas eve, that was my 6th miscarriage and i have had 1 ectopic. To think that i have been pregnant that many times and to not have any of those children is getting sadder and sadder to me. What i am so excited about is after all those miscarriages is that i finally have a doctor who is doing something to try and get me pregnant instead of just saying "oh well just keep trying". I am going to be starting my first round of clomid! I am so excited and i hope that it works! Everyone i know that has done clomid has gotten pregnant and it sticked. I know i probably shouldn't get so excited but at the same time i feel like i should get to be as well. Basically im torn on how i should be feeling but you know what, screw it, im excited and just hope everything will work out. Tia for listening to my rant and i wish you all the best of luck and lots of baby dust!