I’m 39+1 day and I just feeling super defeated. I feel like

I’m never going to go into labor. I’m not having any contractions. I am dialated to a two and his head is right there but I know that doesn’t mean much. My midwife said yesterday that she thinks I’ll go into labor this weekend, but there’s just no way I see that happening. I’m just so emotional about it. It’s tough not being in control and not knowing when or if it’ll happen naturally. This is my first so im expecting to go over my due date but idk im just feeling defeated.