Please tell me if I'm being selfish or not. My ex-wife and I are still bestfriends we thought we were soul mates but we realized we were really destin to be friends for life.

So we both started our TTC journey at the same time with different people.

3 years ago after trying for 5 years I was successful and unfortunately she wasn't I thought she would've been happy for me but she was so wrapped up in the fact she wasn't successful she forgot to be there for me.

I was sad she wasn't successful I decided to beg the gentleman to please help her become successful and out of feelings for me he did.

She was too wrapped up in the fact he had feelings for me n was still sexually involved with me she no longer wanted to use him

During my pregnancy (I did not rub it in her face I barely talked about it I didn't even have a baby shower out of respect)She was always a Debby Downer to the point she went into a deep depression where she stopped working n since we were roommates i had to pick up her slack for 7 months of my pregnancy I paid all the bills n was so stressed but I had to be there for my friend right.

Anyways fast forward 2 years n she is still struggling with conceiving her 1st. So I pushed the gentleman again to help her so he is currently helping her on her journey and I always wanted more kids but out of respect for her I didn't have any more.

My son is almost 3 n I can tell he wants a brother or sister so I told her last year I'm sorry but I will be on this journey with you its not fair I keep putting my life on hold and of course I'm using the same guy and she's upset she doesn't want me to use him.

Am I being selfish for using the Father of my 1st child for my second.