So today I had court for an order of protection a little background of the situation I had received an emergency order protection against my ex boyfriend and the father of my child 3 weeks ago my ex he had pushed me shoved me threatened me threatened 1 point in time he threatened to slash my tires, hes punched a hole in the wall and through a baby gate at me from across the Room and broke it when. I want to court today I told the judge everything and I had even had screenshot of text messages of the harassment. I also had video clippings of him pushing me in throwing the baby gate at me Sadly the judge never asked for my evidence and in the end denied me of the order protection for two years he didn't think my allegations I guess were substantial enough but also said that we should work things out because I'm having his child. The judge ask me if I thought I really needed the 2 year OP which I said I did but I was still denied I felt as though that the judge made his decision based on his opinion which I think is completely wrong I am very disappointed and heartbroken luckily I had got my locks changed. The judge was also telling me during court today that I shouldn't push his buttons or something about pushing his buttons and said the same to my ex like all don't push her buttons in something along those lines. I felt like he was basically telling me it was my fault because I pushed his buttons? I also felt like I wanted to say to him was so if I look at my ex right now and say fuck you and he jumps across the table and punches me in the face are you going to tell me not to push his buttons and let him go? was it because I didn't get the shit beat out of me that I don't deserve an order protection? was it not abuse? Was I just imagining things? is there something wrong with me? is he going to show up here since he has a key and just beat me up because hes pissed off I took him to court? Is he going to show up here and/holes in my tires break a window anything could happen? Or do I really not deserve the order protection is what I went through not enough abuse I was always told that you know abuse is even harassment punching a hole in the walls considered harassment in the form of abuse that's what I was told by some legal advice but apparently it's not pushing someone's not abuse shoving someone pregnant not abuse threatening someone that you know your going to do something to harm their on born child or to ruin their belongings I guess is not abuse I guess name calling is not abuse. Apparently in my county based on the judge I saw today in order to have an order protection is to have the shit kicked out of you and to not be pregnant by the defendants child.