I have been in a very rocky relationship for 10 years, gaslighted and finally realized it last year. When we first started dating he made me delete all my social media but I didn’t see it as a red flag because I was very very young and not wise. I have started a YouTube channel “vegan cooking” and my videos are actually reeeaaally good. I don’t think he thought they would turn out that good. The first video I posted I showed him, he acted happy and said it was good. Said “it could take years to get likes and subscribers” I down played it and said” I know I’m just doing it for fun” well the reason I started this channel is because he refuses to work full time and lives off of tips. I work full time at home and watch our 20 month old at the same time. After having a severe panic attack about a week ago trying to get a house, saving money when I feel like I’m doing it on my own. I said “fuck it, I’m going to build an empire for me and my baby girl”. I’ve always wanted to make YouTube videos. I pulled out my phone and got to work while working and watching her. My first video turned out beyond incredible and I think he was a little surprised. My sister and mom shared it on Facebook(since I don’t have social media) but he didn’t even mention sharing it on his Instagram(yeah, he has one but not me). The next morning I started filming my next video, and I when my daughter went into our room, I said “ she’s being good, I’m just filming another video” he said “oh yeah?” When he got home from work that night I showed him the video and it turned out even better than the first one. They are legit and I am so proud. He said “you gonna become YouTube?” I said.. “I’m gonna try” know that I’m going to have to create an Instagram for this YouTube channel if it gets anywhere. I told my sister if I can get 100 subscribers I’ll create an Instagram. I didn’t tell him this because it’s going to be the biggest fight when I tell him. I feel like deep down he doesn’t want my channel going anywhere since I will have to make an Instagram. I’m so proud of what I created. I’m determined to make this go somewhere. A couple hours later he said out of nowhere and out of the blue a 10 year relationship he says “ so are you talking to somebody else”? I was completely baffled. Like “what are you talking about”? And he says I see you on different apps on your phone. I literally have glow, Pinterest and youtube. That’s it. I said “ check my phone if you have an issue. He didn’t. But I think he said that because he is uncomfortable with the fact I could possibly become a YouTuber because of the quality of my content. It just sucks. I was so proud of those videos. We need more money and I can’t work any more hours than I already do on top of watching our toddler. This is my last option. What do you guys think?

Here is my channel if anyone is interested in sharing and helping me get to 100 subscribers so I can throw this in his face

Channel name : Tastefully Vegan