I turn 21 today and I looked forward to this specific birthday my whole life and it’s not going as planned at all. Firstly we’re in a pandemic so this already wasn’t going to be the birthday I imagined. Then yesterday my boyfriend got rear ended while taking me and some friends to celebrate my house, there’s no damage, but he’s been pissy since then and isn’t that happy which I understand but it sucks it’s hard to be happy when he’s unhappy. Now today, my birthday we have a five hour drive back to our school since I went home for my birthday and we get stuck in a standstill in traffic and we finally get the chance the exit the highway because the gps tells us how to avoid it and my boyfriend skips the detour in case it was wrong even though I told him I looked up ahead and there’s more traffic and we stay stuck in traffic for another hour. When I tell him he should’ve taken the detour he yells at me when I was just saying. I told him there was more bad traffic ahead he should’ve listened to me. So I just put my hand up to my face and start crying because I didn’t want him to notice since he was already mean to me and I’m just so upset already. And on top of that some of who I thought were my closest friends haven’t even told me happy birthday and they know what today is they’ve seen my Snapchat story and Facebook notifies you so that sucks. I’m just in a really bad mood 😭 I looked forward to this specific birthday all my life and it’s not going well and I don’t want to get excited for anything else before it goes wrong. This is the first time I’ve cried on my birthday too. I just wonder if all these things are signs to just not even celebrate my birthday because last year it was bad too. Last year my boyfriends car got hit and I didn’t have one yet so for my 20th birthday we did nothing besides have cake and this is the second birthday where more bs has happened I just don’t think I should celebrate anymore. I just wanted to vent though thanks if anyone read it 😔

Thank you for all the birthday wishes and advice! I’m feeling a little better now, I need to stop relying on other people to make my birthday enjoyable and I will do some stuff for myself today. Also happy birthday to everyone else whose birthday is today!