Terrified it’s getting lighter

I’ve had 3 pregnancies and 3 losses. This is my 4th pregnancy I picked up yesterday at 10dpo top line. Bottom line is 11DPO and it’s lighter to me.

Ttc after 3 losses is brutal. I know I’m at 45% odds of losing this 4th one too.

God please give me strength to get through this terrifying time 🙏😭

Blurring my pic to be sensitive to anyone that doesn’t want to see it right now 😘

Update: thanks for the love. Looks like it’s gotten a little darker today (photo attached with 10-12Dpo). Just got to let go and just go with it 🙏🙏🙏