So I need some advice regarding my relationship. I got into my first relationship in March last year. We moved kind of quickly and started having sex pretty often. I wasn't that into it but I just did because I thought I would eventually get into it.

Every time we would have sex I would leave instantly after. I didn't cuddle with him after and I would just go home and shower. He would always ask if he could do anything for me but I just wanted to be over.

A couple of months went by of having sex all the time with me not into it but I deeply cared for him. Then I stopped going over because I quarantined at my parents house after and we were on zoom. I was cool because I didn't have to do anything sex wise. This time alone made me realize that I'm probably asexual because I have never been into sex.

Then I spoke to him about this after being a couple of months apart and he said that he has "needs too". We agreed that we would do it at least once a month. But I never wanted to do it anymore. This led to a ton of conversations about when we should do it and I never wanted to. I would cry all the time about this because I didn't want to do it anymore at all.

Now currently he realized that things are not the same anymore since we are doing long distance because I moved out of my college apartment. He wants me to put more effort but I still feel hurt about the whole situation. I love him but I don't know if I can continue. It hurts because I care for him and he tells me he loves me but I don't want to hurt him.