I’ve loved this boy since the first day I met him, since the first time we had a conversation. We had a good relationship but then we had our down parts and I messed up he messed up but it just sucked that we couldn’t trust each other over the littlest things ever. I told him everything no matter what I was always honest there was never nothing I wasn’t honest about but we ended up breaking up after 9months of dating and I’ve never felt Im love with anyone since my first boyfriend of two years. After the breakup I felt so lost and so hurt cause we were best friends and I hurt my Best-friend and he hurt me but we couldn’t go on any further and I tried so hard to fix things but he would get mad over the dumbest things. He was so quick to talk to other girls it seemed like. but we ended up hanging out again after the break up and it was amazing it was like we fell in love all over again but then we went back to school and he acted like nothing happened over the weekend I was hurt and then we just got really distant and it hurt me but maybe it was for the best. But I’ve tried so many times to get him back it’s been almost a year since the break up and I’m talking to someone new and I love this dude but I’m not in love with him. Because I still think about my ex and like I said my ex made it clear he didn’t wanna ever get back together but offered to be friends but settling for friendship could be better than nothing but it’s not it’s like a toddler settling for veggies over their favorite candy, If that makes sense.I just really need help I’m so confused and I’m graduating and me and my current boyfriend don’t go to the same school but me and my ex do and ugh I’m afraid to see my ex it’s been so long and I seen him in traffic two weeks ago but turned my head down so quickly pleas someone just help me with some advice. I’m sick of being in love with someone when I shouldn’t be. And I know that just because you love someone doesn’t mean you have to be with them.