I’ve been working since I was eight years old. We ran a tree cutting/landscaping business for years. Then it was plastering and remodeling homes. I stopped around 14 and took a few years off for school. At 16 I got my first real job at a garden center then a large retail store and then worked in a warehouse. I know how to work hard I’ve been doing it since I was young. I’m 21 now and lost the warehouse job when everything locked down. I haven’t been working since. I’ve been doing a side job on depop promoting and selling vintage/modern clothes. All from my personal collection that I’m ready to part with. It was good for a bit but I’ve really cut into my savings. Started 2020 with over 10k now I’m at 1500. I moved out and got engaged so all has gone to bills and planning the wedding. My fiancé just bought us a house that I wasn’t able to contribute to cuz I have my own place and pretty much broke now. If I don’t find a way to bring in more income soon I’m not going to be able to finish my lease in May, which is also when the wedding is. The house closes in less than two weeks but I know I still have to pay into this place. I was recently diagnosed with severe gastroparesis and there are days when I can’t move or stop throwing up. I feel like no job could understand that. My bf had a bad year with his stomach too and had surgery so I took a lot of time helping him and his family out. His dads back is broken and his mother recently past from breast cancer. I feel like these are all excuses but basically it’s why I took so much time off. I’m in a tough position now though and I know I did it to myself. I’m struggling with motivation to find a real job because I know I won’t feel well mentally and physically. Although I’m having better days what happens when I don’t. I can’t deal with being let go again because I have the flu for a week. Yes they really let me go cuz I had the flu the week everything locked down. Where should I work?? What should I do?? I feel so alone in this and weak because I know I was capable of a lot more. Please either tell me to suck it up and get out there or suggest something that could make it easier for me ):