Please do not slaughter me for the post, I am looking for help & advice!

I am currently 4w+ 1d and really struggling to stop smoking.

I genuinely thought it would be natural, almost an instinct to stop as soon as you see those two lines but I’m finding I’ve gone quite the opposite. The sheer thought of ‘I’m not supposed to be smoking right now’ is making me want to literally smoke like a chimney 🤦🏻‍♀️

I’ve tried to vape instead the last few days in the aim to come off the cigarettes and eventually off the vape too (I know this is also not good but at least it’s not a cigarette) but I still can’t seem to let the cigarettes go.

I feel awful every single time I pick up a cigarette and am adamant I want to stop, but am struggling with my 13+ year addiction!

Any recommendations from Mama’s who have been in this boat?