Chemical pregnancy rant


So I was just 2 days late on my period and I guess I shouldn’t of tested and got my hopes up but I did and was getting faint positives and a digital positive over those two days. Last night I start bleeding and call the dr this morning. She sends me to the ER and their test comes back negative. This isn’t the first time it’s happened this is my third miscarriage. One at 25 weeks and the others early on but when they come back with a negative I always feel crazy even though I took like 6 tests that were positive before I started bleeding. They said either an early miscarriage or chemical pregnancy but I just feel so upset and defeated and I know I’m not the only one. I just don’t know why none of my babes stay :/.