Please no hate or bashing.

I had a baby 2 and a half months ago. The pregnancy really took a toll on my body, my mental health and my relationship. It was horrendous, and lonely and physically painful. Now my daughter is here im so greatful for her, don't get me wrong. But my head is all still messed up. I'm currently in contact with mind doing CBT.

The past 2 weeks I've been having bad cramping but no period. Im usually on a 28 day cycle but i know it was bound to be messed up by giving birth. According to my <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">period app</a> I'm 3 days late but god knows. So I took a test and it came back positive. I have no idea how or when it could have happened, my head just can't figure it out. I'm just feeling sick right now. I can't have 3 kids under 3. I can't do another pregnancy. I didnt plan on having anymore after i had my second. I just can't do it again. And I'm scared to tell my partner since my last pregnancy almost caused us to split.

Taken at 1.30pm today

[Edited by Glow]

I had 1 accident in December, the condom broke and immediately took the MPA. Went straight onto the pill after that. Had been using condoms religiously. Had a 10 day bleed for my first period which ended 3 weeks ago. Didn't think ovulation could have happened with being on the pill. So yes, THAT'S HOW I DONT KNOW. Think before posting such hateful comments.

EDIT 2

First, thank you to anyone who posted a kind and helpful comment. It's really appreciated!

Second, I have no idea why the snarky ones got deleted unless the posters deleted them themselves, which seems unlikely.