Is abortion an option for me now?

Current situation:

4 days delayed

36, with two boys. One is 2.5 yo and the other is 4 month old.

Working for the same company for almost 5 years. Moved from one state to another in February 2020. Worked in the office for one week and the remaining days before the maternity leave from home. Currently on maternity leave.

Husband is ok if my decision is to proceed with the child, will support 100%. He will nit tolerate abortion if the baby is already formed, bigger than a cell, akready has its body parts formed.

After years of working and saving, we are now able to build a house meaning, mortgages to pay. My husband is not saying anything but I know the pressure is on as he is paying for the rent and at the same time the mortgage for the new house.

Hi ladies, I know this is a very sensitive topic. Please, no judging. Im in a situation right now where Im thinking if its the right choice for me. I really need opinion about this. If Im a few weeks pregnant right now and I do it, will I regret it for the rest of my life? I didnt have PPD when I had my two boys but Im worried that if I do this, I might lose it but I may also be depressed after. Also, Im not overly religious but, I was raised in a country where the belief is if we do this, it’s equivalent to killing an innocent, and that you may go to hell after life.

I really need to know your thoughts about this. Given the sitation above, is abortion the right thing to do at this point? Please, I really want to know what you think? Are you able to sleep after this? What did you feel?

Thank you so much.