10dpo no symptoms, help

10dpo vvvvfl yesterday night, negative this morning. Lower bache aches a bit, peeing every 20 mins(I always pee alot) boobs been for for a few weeks but they recently feel fuller like kinda hard when I squeeze them. Heavy watery cm. Feeling sad I feel like I'm out. Ttc 2 years now... but I always have pms before af like cramps and what not and usually I'm very nice but I'm very cranky and just mean. I'm way to scared to test again. So looking for insight, your thoughts anything for some kind of hope 😫😭