Evap or positive?

Evelyn • wife since 2017 and mom of a beautiful two year old boy and baby girl on the way! Both my rainbow babies 🌈

Okay yes I am most likely imaging things, I’ve been trying to conceive for 6 months already, long story short, I miscarried 6 months ago, at 6.4 weeks Bc of a SCH, since then I’ve only had two periods in the last two months. My last period started last month on the 12, so there’s still 9 days till my “next period”(I always been irregular) I am so desperate to see a positive, I know these cheap tests give lots of evap lines, I want to believe these are evaps, as there’s still over a week until my period, what do you think? Pls just help me being honest tell me you have gotten these evaps too so I can be realistic, I don’t want to get exited anymore 😞 after two miscarriages I just want to be more realistic now but the baby fever been so so strong these months ugh

Thanks!