This is a long one so thank you if you read to the end.

I’m married with 2 boys already so this is baby number 3 and it kills me to say this but I hate being pregnant. This pregnancy was unplanned my husband so desperately wanted another baby but I didn’t. To make matters worse from week 6 I was diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum (HG) which is serve morning sickness. It has been so bad that I’ve been admitted to hospital 3 times already because of it. I’m unable to perform day to day activities such as cooking, bathing and playing my children everything is so exhausting and nauseating.

The pregnancy has been rough from the start and seems to be getting worse.

I feel so ungrateful saying I don’t want another baby but I had a 3 year plan. I wanted to start a degree and save to buy our own home. We only last year moved into our 2 bedroom house but we have to move again because there won’t be enough space for baby. I’m determined to continue with getting my degree so will start classes online as of next week but I don’t know how I’m going to cope as due to the pandemic the day Is filled with homeschooling our 4 year old and looking after our 2 year old (which I can barely cope with).

I mentioned that I’m married but my husband does absolutely nothing and I wish I was exaggerating. He doesn’t cook, clean, do laundry, do the food shop, homeschool, put the boys to bed nothing. Still being 4 months pregnant the entire day is down to me. I’ve been feeling so depressed and overwhelmed.

My husband doesn’t seem to care about me. He’s not asked once how I’m coping with this pregnancy and only a few times asked how the baby is. Throughout the day he doesn’t say anything to me and pretty much ignores me but at night he tries to be intimate with me I reject him and he can’t seem to understand why (despite me trying to tell him).

I’m at breaking point I’m having a baby I don’t want, whilst suffering from HG, I’m failing at being a mum, I struggle with day to day life, I feel unaccomplished both academically and professionally and I’m convinced my husband doesn’t love me.

I’ve tried speaking to him but he shuts me down each time what can I do? Anyone?