I’m so scared there’s something wrong with me or I’m doin something wrong

Never had a boyfriend. I’ve always been so busy, I’m a doctor so very busy stressful job. University I didn’t get any sex as so busy. Guys were always very pushy and if I didn’t say yes to sleeping with them straight away they would move on, although I wanted to I wanted to get to know a little first

Last year in 2019 I started dating. Didn’t meet anyone I liked until March. We talked for 6 months during pandemic and finally met and had loads of nice dates . I really wanted to finally lose my virginity but he disappeared before I even got to have sex

Now I’m absolutely certain not gonna meet anyone cause of the pandemic,, I’m ultra horny all the time too, I think about sex for about 4 hours every dat, I just wanna lose my virginity