Am I really into sex

Salami

Okay so I’ve discovered over 3-4 years that I like girls but do I really want sex that’s the question, I really need help with this like I know that I need to do it by myself but I just don’t know, do I want to have a girlfriend or do I just want the attention? I mean I have enough from my friends but like I want a cuddle I want to feel safe with someone and not want to punch them as soon as they touch me,

one of my friends suggested that porn was an option I could try (watching it i mean) so I put some on and that was absolutely DISGUSTING. So like I don’t even know :) hehe any whooo if anyone got any other ways to help me just like do the comment thing :)