Trying to let things be

I’ve been TTC for over a year. I just did 3 months on Clomid (as a boost, I already ovulate). My bloodwork, HSG, and husbands SA are normal. Month after month I’m heartbroken and I’m so over it. I try to not get my hopes up but they are always up. I messaged my obgyn about next steps and her suggestion was to up Clomid dose and refer me to a reproductive endocrinologist. I’m happy to be meeting with a RE in a few weeks but I felt uneasy but upping my dose since it’s working in respect to ovulation, and I’m not being monitored. For a few days I thought about what brings me most peace and I decided to not take any Clomid this month. I’m so relieved to give my body a break from the side effects and let things be. We will still try but I really need to practice self care. This has been consuming me. Just wanted to share 💖