Mommy guilt due to the Pandemic😬

I live in the USA & they first declared COVID a legit pandemic on March 11th of last year. I had my first baby on March 1st. 11 days before this entire thing really blew up where we are.

I feel so so guilty for not being able to do anything with my baby. It doesn’t help that we live in New York -in a city at that. I’m not comfortable walking her or going outside with her around here & the weather is atrocious anyways. So that’s besides the point. We do plan to move come spring so I know things will get better but I feel absolutely terrible now. This poor babe lives the same life every single day going from the kitchen to the living room doing our daily routine. I try to switch things up. I feel I didn’t get to experience her first year like I could have if COVID weren’t around. I feel she missed out on a lot of things her first year as well.

I have nothing else to compare this experience to. I only know what it’s like to have a baby during a pandemic. I don’t know what it’s like to “normally” have a baby. It’s so bad I see pictures of other babies years ago close up with strangers in public & im like *gasp* “why aren’t they social distancing with that baby!!!” “No masks for anyone!?” & then I have to remind myself that most people didn’t have a baby during a pandemic🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ Its starting to take a mental toll🙃

I’m not really sure where I’m going with this. I guess I’m just looking for any mamas that can relate or leave some advice on what may help🤍