Im a 20 year old that was really quiet not really out there much during high school I had a couple friends but they were weird so I ended up with none do to shady stuff . I been having this bf for 2 years now during my high school and now .. and he’s been through a lot in his life and I’m not saving up for him but I do feel bad a bit he’s never been taught how to love nothing his first relationship was with me . He’s never gotten close with anyone (girls) I know a lot about his life because he opened up to me a couple times .. but idk I love him but it’s hard he doesn’t show much emotions or love , no love paragraphs , no dates at all we never been on a date like a nice dinner out he’s bought food and we ate but nothing big or all that never bought me a real nice gift probably bought me 2 gifts so far never flowers literally almost nothing and we don’t do much . I tell him .. he says Im sorry I never really been anywhere while growing up this is my first relationship and it’s hard for me to show my all I’m embarrassed and idk I feel drained lonely like I deserve way more 😳 it seems selfish but I’m not being selfish what girl doesn’t like gifts ,dates , flowers etc also he’s never got me anything for Valentine’s.. or my birthday maybe something really small or Christmas gifts he’s comes from a broken home / family also doesn’t have a job he works once in awhile also due to Covid he doesn’t get called in as much . But I feel stupid embarrassing lonely and more like it’s my fault . Valentine’s is coming up and I know we’re not doing anything it’s almost like I wanna break down crying . What do I do I feel lost and just dumb I wish someone Can understand me without judging. Also I have no friends all I do is work and I’m trying to go to school so only person I have is my bf I guess that’s basically the only person who I hang out with or else I’m just home ...