confused and hurt

Brittney • wife/mom, 💙👼🏻👼🏻, 🌈💖💙

i just found out last week that my baby stopped growing and died at 13 weeks 4 days when i was supposed to be 14 weeks...they don’t know what caused it and i can’t get a D&C due to cost and i’m just so hurt and confused..my genetic test came back low risk everything was in the clear and now i don’t have a baby anymore...we tried for so long and had a MC in 2018..i don’t even know how to feel anymore and i’m blaming myself..even though the doctor said it wasn’t my fault..