I wasn’t ttc, I don’t want to be pregnant right now, part of me hoped for a miscarriage (but would be devastated at the same time because I desperately want another baby, just not a pregnancy!) and yet I have a healthy growing fetus. And then there’s women that have prayed and tried for so long unable to maintain their pregnancy. I wish I could take my precious little fetus and put it in one of those mamas to carry and love 😢 getting pregnant seems to be easy for me but carrying is absolutely terrible. I just feel so bad that mine is sticking while others who want to be pregnant are not.

Just eta because I knew I would get judged over this - a small part of me hoped for a miscarriage because I’m incredibly ill and struggling to care for my other children. It’s also a high risk pregnancy (not just for baby but for me) which is why the baby is wanted but the pregnancy is not. An uncomplicated pregnancy is the ultimate wish but that’s not happening- and my feelings are just as valid as any other in this group regardless of whether they’re common feelings or not