Wanting a fresh start

I want so badly to move out of state and be away from my family. They are all so toxic and controlling. They never care what I have to say or how I feel. I come last to my sister and brother. I've always felt like an outcast and like no one cares about me or how I feel. I want to move away so badly but can't afford to do it. I just wish my family was different😩😩😩