Well I guess I'm just hear to vent a little bit. I'm a newlywed with a new job for a great company and yet I'm still deeply depressed and incredibly anxious. My therapist recommended I see my doctor for a depression and anxiety screening. I picked up my prescription today for an antidepressant.

On one hand I'm proud of myself and on the other I feel like a total failure. I couldn't keep myself together singlehandedly. Even though everything is technically going fine - my husband and I are blessed to be able to work from home during this pandemic, we own our own place, we don't want for anything and are financially secure - I am still falling apart.

Plus we want kids. It's not safe to start trying while my brain is in this state and while I'm on medication. Not to mention my husband has problems with ED and I'll be 31 this year. It feels like we are running out of time. And what will I do when I'm a mom if I can't even hold myself together now? I just want to cry. Everything is so hard and I'm just so sad and worried about everything.