maybe just a whole removal. i’m a freaking 32J, and i’ve stopped fitting in all the ones i have. i don’t think bras can go any higher. i can’t exercise or sit at tables comfortably or sleep without tucking my arms in specific ways that cut off circulation and my back always hurts. i’m always getting weird, creepy stares too. i’m only 16 and i can’t get any surgeries without my parents consent but they won’t let me. “its a gift,” and 3 times a year, i have to get custom bras that are getting increasingly more expensive. “suck it up like the rest of us,” even though “the rest” can hug people without being in pain. “you’re overreacting,” while i’m crying because just bending over is too fucking difficult for my spine to handle. “just lose weight and they’ll shrink first” but i don’t even eat two whole meals a day anymore and can’t lose a single pound.

i can’t stand this.