As I’m sitting here doing skin to skin while my sweet baby sleeps I can’t be anymore grateful or in love 💕. I know there is no one else that understands this feeling more than our sisterhood. We went through so much and worked so hard to sit here with our bundles of joy that I almost can’t believe I am sitting here with all I ever wanted for our little family. Below is the birth story for cookie. I’m not holding anything back because the white washing of pregnancy and labor is seriously hurting women.

I remind myself of this everyday because having a newborn is hard. Having a newborn who comes early is hard. On top of all that cookie was always breech and on the day that I was supposed to have a procedure for the doctor to flip him my water broke at 4 AM. I honestly woke up thinking I’m peeing on myself because no way did I think he would come at 37 weeks and 3 days. I seriously went into the shower and cried when I realized my water has broken. Thank goodness I have my Angel 👼 of a mother who packed my hospital bag the night before the procedure because I worked till 9 pm that night. Without her and my husband I don’t know how this would have even happened.

So fast forward to the hospital where my doctor broke the news that i would definitely have a c section because it would be hard to turn him at this point. I begged him to try to turn him before the c section. He agreed. He tried to turn him and the baby turned a little but his heart rate dropped and they did an emergency c section. Baby came out perfect and their fear for the emergency c section was unfounded.

Fast forward to spending 4 days in the hospital trying to recover from this awful c section. So I guess what they don’t tell you is that an emergency c section is more rough and harder to recover from because they do everything so quickly. It felt like someone had cut off my legs from the thighs and then stuck them back on. It has been a week since delivery and i still cannot walk without the help of opioids. At the hospital I didn’t respond to the oxycodone which the doctors and most nurses ignored. It took one special nurse that listened to me to actually try different meds. I was bed-bound and in serious pain. Then they tried dilaudid another opioid and that didn’t work either. The third opioid Norco ( hydrocodone + Tylenol) is what has finally taken some of the pain away. All this to say speak 🗣 up at the hospital keep telling them if something is working cuz telling them once won’t work. Depending on the nurse I was treated as either a granola drug avoider or drug seeker. And the doctors won’t come around much.

I wanted to share all that to say that I won’t participate in the erasure of womens recovery and pain when we talk about pregnancy and birth and I hope you all feel comfortable to also advocate for yourself and not allow this.

I’m home now and much happier because I have my beautiful angel 👼 baby that feeds and feeds and is growing:) and my beautiful husband and mom who work so hard to get me sleep and recovery between every 2 hours feedings. I couldn’t do any of this without them. I put a picture of my cutie below. This was on the way back from the hospital.