So I been dealing with this guy on and off since 2016. when we first started messing around it was great we spent all the time together. always sleeping over his house day and night we was together, he invited me to family gatherings and his brothers wedding as his date , took me out for Valentine’s Day and set up the most beautiful time at the hotel rose peddles all on the bed and floor candles lit everywhere big chocolate heart on the bed. it was the first time someone ever did that for me my first Valentine’s Day lol. but then we just stopped talking one day fast forward to now 2021 we started talking again in like may of 2020 and we started “messing around” again. now he knows and I told him I’m not going to have sex with him if he’s having sex with other people or if you have a girlfriend. so he told me okay if He end up talking to someone and it’s serious I will tell you. anyways shits been different he’s not like he was when I first started messing with him he’s a lot more rude now and just a I don’t have time type of shit. when he’s on his phone all day he doesn’t text back and he is has his phone on him at all times literally. I always have to be the one to talk to him for us to link up it was never like that this man used to face time me every chance he got. even when I moved to Arizona he called me all the time when I visited I was always with him the whole time. I always express how much I like him that’s why I said I didn’t want him to be with anyone else even though technically we are not together I always say he’s my crush and how much I like him. He’s iffy on and off once day he gets in his feeling about everything then the next time we link he has a idgaf vibe. he got upset one day because I went to pick something up from him and I had a friend (male) with me in the car which I told him I don’t mess with him he’s only a friend I know his girlfriend it’s nothing like that. I even told him we can go up to dude together and ask him if I’m messing with him I have no problem easing our mind because your who I want. and he still continues to bring that up saying I’m fucking him because he took a ride with me down there to go see him which is like an hour ride. I told him I don’t mess with nobody but you I don’t want nobody but you anyways. I could tell I been falling for this man HARD “ooops I hope I don’t fall” head ass smh lol. I started to look through his likes on Facebook 😂ughh anyways so I always tell him if this isn’t what you want let me know because you know how I feel about you. if you don’t want to be with me then we can’t fuck anymore because at this point I have real feelings. I’m not saying that he had to rush a relationship with me but just putting it out there that Of I found out some shit it would really hurt me. And I didn’t want to continue doing this if he didn’t feel the same was as I felt because I’m the one that has my feelings on the line. Anyways long story long is today he posted a status and I looks at the likes this girl loved it so you know I had to go through her Facebook. and what do I see I see pictures of them together RECENTLY I was so hurt I immediately started balling my eyes out feeling so fucking stupid he made me feel like we was going somewhere he would be like you should have been fucking with me rubbing my feet this mans saving my BD pictures in his phone so if he see him type weird shit men 🙄 I live in Boston MA he lives in Providence RI. he would tell me move closer to him he would send me places out in RI that’s for rent. when we’re out together and there would be a for rent sign he would make me get out to get the number. and shit like I’m thinking he really fucks with me and now I’m just so heart broken but I don’t even know if I have the right to be this upset. I just wish he would have told me that there could be a possibility of someone else then I could at least get ahold of my emotions and head out before My feelings get to invested. I thought that he was different I haven’t messed with not one man in 4 years I open up put myself out there again only to look like a fool. and when I do I get my heart crushed I hate relationships so much sometimes I just feel like maybe I’m not supposed to be loved. i love so hard to the fullest and I’ve never received the kind of love that I give out and it hurts so much guess age don’t mean shit older men still play mind games. He’s 29 and I’m 24