Has anyone dealt with postpartum depression months after having baby? I’m 5 months PP with my first son, I never had the baby blues or anything, I felt relatively good mental health wise for a long time after my son was born, which I was surprised by because I’ve dealt with major depression and anxiety most of my life. Recently (maybe the last 2-3 weeks) I’ve felt really off, really sad, I have no ambition anymore. I stopped taking care of myself, I don’t eat, I stopped doing basic chores I’m angry all the time, I lose my cool, I get easily frustrated. I really feel like I’m drowning and I have no friends to talk to or anyone I trust. I hate where I’m at in life, I’m a stay at home mom(which I love) but my time for that is running out and I need to find a job because we can’t afford it anymore. I’m horrified to put my son in daycare and I haven’t had to physically go to work In over 2 years (I worked from home before my son was born as a nanny) and my anxiety is so bad that I don’t know if I will even be able to function. I want so badly to better my life for son and myself but I don’t know how to get out of this rut I’m in. I also have no health insurance right now because I can’t afford it and I can’t get help for my depression or anxiety.