venting - everyday feels the same.. stuck on repeat.

I feel like everyday is the same thing over & over again.. husband goes to work, I take care of baby all day long in the bedroom.. (were living with his family.) he comes home at 6:30.. we eat.. hang for a bit, sleep & do it all over again.

5 days a week.

my baby is fussy & the days are so long & draining that by 6:30 I don’t even have the happiness or energy to be excited that my husband is home.

I feel like it’s taking a toll on me.. I wanted to start college or a nursing program but I realized this week that that wouldn’t be possible.

No ones able to take care of the baby & on top of that.. do I really trust anyone to, especially in a time like this?

I love my baby & wouldn’t change him for the world or regret him but I just feel like my days are overlapping & I hate this.

I don’t have a car to go out with him, plus again.. we’re in a pandemic & it’s the middle of winter on the north east.

I just feel overwhelmed, & depressed & like my life has no purpose anymore besides being a mom.